OH BOY. Well. This is excellently written. When I was reading the first half, I wanted to curl up into a ball - some painfully familiar feelings. I'm so glad that you have found all of these resources/options for you to work away from this stuff!! It feels really hopeful to read even though I'm unsure if some of the same stuff will work for me, and I'm not sure if I'm even in a place where I can access trying to move away from it. But I'm very glad to read it. Thank you for writing it and sharing so much of yourself and your experience with it.